Simply Soul Searching
HOW IS GOD LOVING ME – AND WHERE IS GOD LEADING ME?
OPEN TO POSSIBILITY
Am I doing enough with my life?
Perhaps four weeks out from my hip surgery is not the best time to ask this question! But I have been wondering about this for some time now. Since my time with cancer (nine years ago), I especially regard each day as a bonus day to fill with meaning or purpose. I want to feel as if I am somehow living in a way that is worthy of this gift.
And so, I often ask myself additional questions…
At the end of my life, will I be glad I spent the day this way?
Am I choosing simplicity for my life, or is this really complacency?
Is my aging body preventing me from doing more, or have I grown comfortable with doing less?
Why does my spirit inspire me to action, but the action soon feels daunting?
Are any anticipated or actual obstacles guiding me to abandon this goal, or are they building my faith and trust?
Will there ever come a time when I will know I have done enough?
As much as I would like to honor God with my life, with gratitude and faithful servanthood, in recent years my dreams and inspirations often seem to fade each time I consider acting on them. But today it occurs to me that instead of dwelling on these doubts and questions, I can simply begin with one small act:
I will ask God to help me remain open to possibilities; to be more attentive to any ideas that stir me, inspirations that nudge me, goals that excite me–even thoughts that challenge me–no matter how small or insignificant they seem. This time of life may be a time for rest, refreshment, and reflection. But I can live each restful day with a sense of wonder and expectation, with a spirit of readiness and willingness. I can be peaceful and patient and yet, prepared.
And I will trust that any sacred invitation will arrive at its proper time, revealed by the One who is ready to help me answer the call.
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Simply Soul Searching 
Great questions to ask, Karen – providing you don’t get too anxious about the way you answer. Sometimes I find I need to make what I believe is the right choice, and then trust….
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Thank you, Malcolm, for this wise reminder. Sometimes I find that I can do just that (become anxious).
We have a friend who lives by “taking the next step to see where this leads”. I love his spirit! I may need to try this more often. I think this is what you are also describing. Trust…
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Absolutely, Karen; balancing caution with a sense of adventure!
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You are certainly starting in the right place…with an open heart and gratitude. We don’t come up with answers unless we ask the questions! It is certainly good to be open to new possibilities…I do believe though, that there are times when we do need rest before moving on to the next thing. Sometimes, in that time of reflection, we learn a lot about ourselves and our dreams.
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Your words are wise, too, thank you, Linda. Yes, times of rest and reflection can become “productive” with insight and revelation. Thank you! I’m grateful we have connected here.
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🙂 🙂 🙂
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