Simply Soul Searching

Luke 15:8-10 (NRSV)

⁸ “Or what woman having ten silver coins, if she loses one of them, does not light a lamp, sweep the house, and search carefully until she finds it? ⁹ When she has found it, she calls together her friends and neighbors, saying, ‘Rejoice with me, for I have found the coin that I had lost.’ ¹⁰ Just so, I tell you, there is joy in the presence of the angels of God over one sinner who repents.”

Jim and I were on a mission trip with our youth group. He was sharing a lesson about repentance, but when he said the word, “repent” the youth laughed. His southern drawl made the word sound like “repaint” to our Toledo teens. After that, they would occasionally ask him to say it again- just for laughs. We are not sure whether they remember any lessons from that day, but we know they will never forget the word! “Repaint!”

To repent is to regret and be sorry for our sinful actions. Repenting also means turning from our sin and living in more perfect obedience to God. Perhaps repenting IS a lot like repainting. Like paint that fades over time, our enthusiastic faith may wane into lackluster living. Our sinful nature blisters with anger or impatience in the heat of the moment, much like paint bubbles up in the hot sun. Life’s challenges, like the weather on a painted wall, gradually strip away our “perfect” outer façade- and we don’t like what we see exposed underneath. And so we know it’s time to “repaint.”

We examine ourselves to uncover all of our flaws and imperfections. As we find all of the flakes and debris of our sinfulness, we ask God to wash us, cleansing us from our unrighteousness. We cover ourselves in God’s mercy and grace. God restores us and brings us again to newness. We are made beautiful in God’s love. But soon it’s time to “repaint” again, isn’t it?

With God there is always good news. Our desire to even acknowledge our sins and repent of them is God-given. Our desire to be better people and refrain from sinning is also a gift from God. God knows that our faith growth is a lifetime process. Martin Luther’s first thesis reads, “When our Lord and Master Jesus Christ said “Repent,” he intended that the entire life of believers should be repentance.” We can turn from our sin with the freedom and trust that we are forgiven, as God showed us through Jesus. Every time. We are freshly restored and made new, able to begin again.

Spring has arrived in the northern hemisphere. Is it time to repaint? In what way would you like to be made new?

Our symbol for today is a paint brush. May the paint brush remind us of the gifts we have in repentance and forgiveness, restoration and renewal. Today let’s take a moment to consider ways we would like to turn from sin, and to turn to the God who lovingly makes us new.

Forgiving God,

With humble gratitude I thank you for it all- the awareness of my sinful nature, the desire to repent, the assurance of your loving mercy and forgiveness, and the restoration and renewal you offer me every time. Open me to be more fully aware of my unworthiness. Open me to be more fully aware of your generous, merciful love that comes to me in spite of my worth. Thank you. Amen.

(I have a busy weekend ahead, so the next few devotions are being published early.)

Mark 6:30-32

³⁰ The apostles gathered around Jesus, and told him all that they had done and  taught. ³¹ He said to them, “Come away to a deserted place all by yourselves and rest a while.” For many were coming and going, and they had no leisure even to eat. ³² And they went away in the boat to a deserted place by themselves. 

 Matthew 11:28-30

²⁸ “Come to me, all you that are weary and are carrying heavy burdens, and I will give you rest. ²⁹ Take my yoke upon you, and learn from me; for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. ³⁰ For my yoke is easy, and my burden is light.”

It may seem strange to think of rest as our Lenten practice for today. “Practice” involves doing! But let’s consider our practice of rest as a new way of living, not just a break from doing.

In our reading from Mark, Jesus invites his disciples to “come away to a deserted place all by yourselves and rest for a while.” They had been busily teaching, healing, traveling, and answering the needs of many. If we read further, we learn that they would soon be busy again. Jesus understood the need for respite and rest. His invitation was to rest FROM the overwhelming crowds and challenging days.

What might you need to “come away from” for a few moments? How might you separate yourself from those needs for a while? What quiet place of solitude is beckoning you?

In the Matthew passage, there is another invitation: to rest IN Jesus. Jesus invites all of us who are “weary and carrying heavy burdens” to come to him for rest. This is more than rest from activity. It is his offer to take our emotional and mental burdens to him, and find rest for our souls. Often when our souls are burdened we want to sleep, perhaps to find a break from our worry.  But this does not give us the rest we need, and we awaken just as weary and burdened as before. What a gift Jesus is offering us- to relieve us from our burdens!

What burdens are you carrying now? How might you bring those burdens to Jesus? What might you learn from Jesus today?

In any creative work of art, the empty spaces are as significant as the artwork. A melody is enhanced by the rests between notes, the deliberate pauses of music. A poem is created with special breaks and meters for pace and emphasis. A painter or sculptor uses both medium and space to bring beauty to our eyes. God desires to make a beautiful work of art with our lives. We too, need to allow spaces. Spaces for resting from, and spaces for resting in.

Our reminder symbol for today is a musical rest. May we remember that our silent spaces of rest are as important and as needful as our works.

Jesus, my resting place,

You invite me to rest from my busyness. Help me to bring you my agenda. Together we will find a quiet time and place for me to be alone with you.

You invite me to rest in you. Help me to bring you my cares. Together we will restore my soul with respite and renewal in you.

You invite me to be your work of art. Help me to bring you my life. Together we will create your beautiful image of me, as only you can do.

Amen.

Isaiah 43:1-2

But now thus says the Lord,
    he who created you, O Jacob,
    he who formed you, O Israel:
Do not fear, for I have redeemed you;
    I have called you by name, you are mine.
² When you pass through the waters, I will be with you;
    and through the rivers, they shall not overwhelm you;
when you walk through fire you shall not be burned,
    and the flame shall not consume you.

The little dog was keeping his human companion company while the gentleman worked in his yard. As I walked along the fence, the dog ran along the other side, barking fiercely. I was very relieved to have that fence between us! This morning I approached the same house and the dog began barking again. But when I came closer, the little imp turned and ran to the front door- where he cowered! I believe he lost his courage because his human companion wasn’t out there with him.

As silly as that little dog seemed, I know that I am quite like him. I am much braver if I have someone with me. I never would have ridden a roller coaster if it wasn’t for my peer-pressuring friends. I am more comfortable entering a room full of people if someone accompanies me. I travel to new places less fearfully when Jim and I go together. Life’s journeys are less intimidating when we have companions with us on the way. Courage is found in company.

Friends in faith can “companion” one another even though we are apart. This is a true gift for us all. I know that I am braver, more secure when friends tell me, “I am praying for you.” We keep company with one another by our united love of Christ, by holding one another in our thoughts and prayers. When Jim and I were ill, many dear friends surrounded us with prayers and accompanied us with cards, meals and gifts. We couldn’t be together with them- but we felt totally loved and supported, never alone. We found strength and courage for each day through this wonderful companionship.

Best of all, we have this God who goes with us in every moment, every challenge, every fear we face. God told Isaiah, “Do not fear, for I am with you, do not be afraid, for I am your God” (Isaiah 41:10). God didn’t say, “Do not fear, I will be cheering you on from the sidelines.” I am with you. God knows that God’s presence will be enough for Isaiah. God’s presence is enough for each of us. Wherever life takes us, God will be there with us.

This earthly life is a rough and tumble time of joy and sorrow, peace and anxiety, smooth sailing and rough waters. We need God. We need one another. For our Lenten practice today, let’s consider our own courage and also how we might accompany others who need it. May our day be filled with prayers for courage- for ourselves, for one another, and for others we know who are facing trials and heartache. Remembering that we are never alone, that God is with us all the time, let’s lift up one another as mutual companions for this day. I am praying for you all.

~Are you going through a fearful, uncertain, difficult time? If so, know that today the rest of us are accompanying you in love, with our heartfelt prayers for strength, for stamina, for protection, for peace.

~Do you have a friend who needs courage for these days? How might you accompany him or her along this way? The rest of us will be praying for these unknown-yet-connected friends, too.

Our reminder symbol is an electric cord. May we remember that God is our constant source of power and strength. May it also remind us that we are forever connected to God, and to one another through faith and love.

“Courage doesn’t always roar. Sometimes courage is the little voice at the end of the day that says I’ll try again tomorrow.”   ~Mary Ann Radmacher

God, our constant companion,

I am so small. But you are infinite, mighty, awesome- and ever present. Help me to remember this when I am facing trials or fearful times. Give me courage for the way. Thank you for going with me! Help me to share your love with others who are fearful, and to find ways to accompany them through their difficulties, too. Amen.

Galatians 5:22-23

²² By contrast, the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, generosity, faithfulness, ²³ gentleness, and self-control. There is no law against such things. 

Our Lenten practice for today is self-control. Most of the Bible passages about self-control are directed toward controlling passions and lust. But self-control can encompass many aspects of our character. We learn to control our tempers. We refrain from gossip. We discipline ourselves in spiritual practices. We restrain ourselves from judging. We deepen in faith as we learn to control any undesirable qualities, which then enhances our good qualities such as patience, humility and perseverance.

Imagine if our self-control could be like holding the TV remote controller… We could turn up the volume on our words of encouragement and kindness. We could mute our negative or unkind thoughts. We could change the channels of our minds to fruitful and uplifting subjects. We could fast forward through the faults of others and disregard them completely. We could brighten our image with the radiant love of Christ. We could replay an idea or inspiration for a second consideration. Of course, we could turn ourselves off completely for rest and renewal.

My Word Thesaurus shows the antonym of self-control is self-indulgence. I appreciate that understanding. For if we were to become fanatical about our self-control, we might actually be indulging ourselves! I know that my striving for self-control could easily become less about growing in love for God, and more about my determination, pride and ego. Disciplines such as fasting, abstaining from something, or any Lenten practice could end up to be an aggravating test of my will, instead of a reassuring rest in God.

Self-control sounds like it’s all about us and our willpower, doesn’t it? Where is God in our self-control? Our Bible verse shows us. It isn’t really SELF control, but our self-control is a fruit of the Spirit. The Spirit gives us this gift! It’s as if we are giving the Spirit the TV controller of our beings. All we need to do is surrender the controller. (I know… that’s not easy, is it?)

Our symbol for today is (of course) a TV remote controller. May it remind us that the Spirit will give us the gift of self-control when we open ourselves to receive it. May it bless us to know that the Spirit does not guide us “remotely”, but is present here within us! Let’s consider those self-indulgent qualities we would like to surrender to the Spirit today. What would you like the Spirit’s power to control?

Spirit of God,

Your presence gives me so many fruits- today I thank you for the gift of self-control. Help me to grow in discipline, restraint and self-control in all the ways I should, and to release any self-indulgent desires. I want to be a more perfect follower of Christ. Thank you for working within me as I continue on this journey. Amen.

1 Peter 3:8 (NRSV)

Finally, all of you, have unity of spirit, sympathy, love for one another, a tender heart, and a humble mind.

When we think of being tenderhearted, we think of being kind, compassionate, sympathetic, soft, and sensitive, but with a deeper nuance. Our care and compassion are dearer, more tender; our hearts are more fully involved. I find being “tenderhearted” happens more easily with children and animals. Their innocent, free spirits readily bring out my tender heart. Show me a commercial that depicts adults who are lonely, in poverty, or enduring hardships and I will be sympathetic and compassionate. But show me a hungry child or an abused animal, and my heart breaks.

What makes the difference? I wonder if I subconsciously protect my heart, picking and choosing which plights will be allowed to wound it. Maybe I inwardly reassure myself that someone else will care so I can save my tenderheartedness for loved ones, children and animals. Or I might actually help in some way, but my heart won’t be involved; it will just be “the right thing to do.” But keeping my heart from tenderness is not allowing it to grow.

For our Lenten practice, let’s try to be tenderhearted toward all people in all circumstances. Being tenderhearted means our hearts will hurt. They will ache with deep love and sympathy and care. But our hearts will be okay. Perhaps the wounds will even open our hearts to fill with more loving kindness. Bob Pierce, Founder of World Vision, once said, “Let my heart be broken by the things that break the heart of God.” Today let’s allow our hearts to be broken.

What are the things that break your heart? Is there room for one more?

Our reminder symbol for today is a rock. May it remind us to not let our hearts become hardened, but allow them to be wounded and vulnerable, as well as soft and tender. May we remember that every hurting soul is a child of God who needs our tenderhearted love and care.

²⁶ A new heart I will give you, and a new spirit I will put within you; and I will remove from your body the heart of stone and give you a heart of flesh.  (Ezekiel 36:26 NRSV)

God of all tenderness and compassion,

Forgive me for those times when I am hardhearted or self-protecting or detached. So many people need my tenderhearted love- please show me who I might help with genuine care and concern. Remove my heart of stone and give me a heart of flesh. Thank you for loving me with your perfect, generous, tender love. Amen.

James 1:22-25 (NRSV)

²² But be doers of the word, and not merely hearers who deceive themselves. ²³ For if any are hearers of the word and not doers, they are like those who look at themselves in a mirror; ²⁴ for they look at themselves and, on going away, immediately forget what they were like. ²⁵ But those who look into the perfect law, the law of liberty, and persevere, being not hearers who forget but doers who act—they will be blessed in their doing.

When we moved into our new home, I was determined to be the NEW Karen. I was going to have all of our belongings in appropriate places, purposefully organized and efficiently arranged. The keys would be in a basket near the garage door. All of our kitchen utensils would be stored for easy access at the proper food preparation area. I took some time to unpack as I considered the best places to place our items. Life would run so smoothly!

But I keep forgetting where these organized, efficient places are! Out of habit, I return to the old places we used to keep our belongings. I’m taking lots of extra steps to find my keys, or utensils, or other items. My efficiency is hindered by my old habits, my usual ways of doing things. I forget how to go about this new way of living. NEW Karen has largely reverted back to usual Karen.

Our Lenten practice for today is obedience. The writer of James is correct- we need to be doers of the word. So many times a sermon message or Bible reading has inspired me to change my ways or take steps to make a difference. But by the next Sunday, I’ve often forgotten what moved me the week before. Because I didn’t follow up my inspiration with action, I was unable to even recall the lesson I’d learned, the nudge I should have acted upon. Life had remained the usual life.

Today let’s try to obediently respond to what we notice or hear. If we feel a nudge or an inspiration from God, let’s make that change or take that step. The more we practice responding to God’s word, the more we will understand and remember what God is teaching and showing us. We will be less likely to forget the new way God is calling us to live. In fact, with enough follow-through, our new way of living may become a habit!

“Prayer will become effective when we stop using it as a substitute for obedience.”   A. W. Tozer

Our symbol is a mirror. May it remind us of these words from the book of James. May we hear what God is teaching us, see what God is showing us, sense how God is nudging us, and then wholly, immediately, and obediently take action to do them.

Inspiring, moving, teaching God,

You are revealing new ways to live and to be. Reveal them to me.

You are calling me to listen and obey. Show me the way.

You are inviting me to love like you. Move me to DO.

Amen.

Micah 6:8

He has told you, O mortal, what is good;
and what does the Lord require of you
but to do justice, and to love kindness,
and to walk humbly with your God?

I was a young mom, heading to the check-out lines at the grocery store. A kind cashier invited me to the “express check-out” lane. I didn’t have many groceries, but I explained that I needed to write a check (checks were not allowed on those lanes at that time). He encouraged me to come anyway, and I was grateful. I had been feeling blue about my recent miscarriage, and it was nice to be treated with this kindness.

Another shopper arrived as I was writing my check and probably assumed I wasn’t following the rules. He impatiently kept pushing his cart into my side as if to hurry me along. I wanted to tell him what had happened but I couldn’t speak… I knew I would cry. I felt so vulnerable, as I was overcome with embarrassment, grief and an inability to defend myself. I wished the cashier would have noticed what the angry man was doing and explained the situation to him.

Our Lenten practice for today is justice. Our calling as followers of Christ is to work to make things right for people who can’t. My incident was minor, but it serves as an example of how we might help others who suffer great injustices and who desperately need our help.

Justice begins when we refrain from jumping to conclusions but instead take the time to learn someone’s story. Or at least to give them the benefit of kindness when we don’t understand their actions. Things may not be what they seem. There is always another story behind the one we see before us.

Justice is practiced when we learn to speak for those who are vulnerable, who are unable to speak for themselves. I remember standing aside when another classmate was treated badly. I regret the many times I have listened to gossip- or even joined in-when I should have been speaking up and defending. I wasn’t the instigator, but I was still part of the problem. In the 1700s, the Irish statesman Edmund Burke said, “The only thing necessary for the triumph of evil is for good men to do nothing.”

Justice is lived when we become vulnerable ourselves. To be willing to stand with those who need us, help others even if we put ourselves in jeopardy, open ourselves to criticism for speaking hard truths, and challenge others to rethink the social systems that lead to injustice and inequality. After the Pulse shooting, Jim and I were a little nervous about attending a Pride parade in Columbus. But we knew that our vulnerability was nothing like the injustice and vulnerability that our dear son, brother, and many loved ones face, every single day. We knew our vulnerability was nothing like the vulnerability our daughter faced as she marched IN the parade. While we make ourselves exposed and vulnerable, we learn to trust that God’s love is covering us, no matter what.

What does God require of us but to do justice- To love kindness- And to walk humbly with our God?

Our symbol for today is a pitcher of water, from Amos 5:24 (NRSV): Let justice roll down like waters, and righteousness like an ever-flowing stream. If you have a small fountain, this would be ideal! May the water inspire us to keep clearing any obstacles that prevent justice and righteousness from flowing freely.

God of ALL,

You call me to do justice. Help me not to remain silent or idle, but to courageously speak or stand for those who are unable to defend themselves.

You call me to love kindness. Help me not to assume or judge, but to look with kindness on people or situations I may not understand.

You call me to walk humbly with you. Help me not to be self-protecting, but to feel your presence as I walk with those who are vulnerable and marginalized.

May I move as your river of love where streams of justice and righteousness flow.

Amen.

Luke 10:41-42

⁴¹ But the Lord answered her, “Martha, Martha, you are worried and distracted by many things; ⁴² there is need of only one thing. Mary has chosen the better part, which will not be taken away from her.”

When we moved from our home to a small apartment, Jim and I reduced our belongings and furniture. We did this out of necessity, and we also wanted to simplify and live more minimally. But now that we have moved to our new home, I find I am excited about new decorations and furniture. (“Wouldn’t this look nice in that corner?”) I realize that I enjoy having a cozy home, with interesting items that inspire or brighten our days, with comfortable spaces to offer our hospitality to others.

Today our Lenten practice is simplicity. Perhaps the genuine spiritual practice of simplicity is what Jesus is referring to in his words to Martha, “there is need of only one thing. Mary has chosen the better part…” Simplicity can be practiced or lived out in a variety of ways, but all of these ways are to help us live with one purpose: loving God wholeheartedly. The simplicity is in having this one purpose in life! When we have one purpose, a singleness of heart, our single heart is our whole heart.

For our simplicity focus today, let’s consider ridding ourselves of those things that keep our hearts from loving God wholeheartedly. Our clutter might be closets stuffed with material possessions. But our clutter could also be schedules jammed with activities and work, minds jumbled with worry or unnecessary concerns, or hearts filled with resentments or pettiness. One small step at a time, we can keep removing the clutter that impedes our purpose of loving God.

Let’s also remember to keep those things that help us to love God wholeheartedly. How might we keep our homes in ways that bring joy to us and bless others, keep spaces in our schedules for time with God, keep God’s words and love in our hearts, or keep God’s peace and hope in our souls? We may discover new, delightful ways to live in simplicity; to live with a singleness of purpose, our wholehearted love of God.

Our reminder symbol is any item that is meaningful to us. (Mine is a small cross from my friend, Nancy, that reads, “live simply.”) May it remind us to be discerning about what distracts and impedes us from loving God, and what inspires and helps us to love God.

Loving God,

You love us with infinite love. Even as I long to love you completely, I know that so many things pull my heart in different directions- and away from loving you wholeheartedly. Help me to find new ways to live in simplicity. Help me to live with a single purpose, that of loving you. Amen.

Romans 6:4

Therefore we have been buried with him by baptism into death, so that, just as Christ was raised from the dead by the glory of the Father, so we too might walk in newness of life.

Here in the northern hemisphere, spring has come! There is something especially glorious about the blossoms and greenings after barren winters. All around us, we see new life, new colors, and new beauty ‘springing’ forth! All of nature seems to speak to us of resurrection and new life after being buried under the cold and snow of winter.

And so our Lenten focus for today is newness. 2 Corinthians tells us, “So if anyone is in Christ, there is a new creation: everything old has passed away; see, everything has become new” (2 Corinthians 5:17, NRSV). In Christ, we are made completely new! But how might we live out this newness we have in Christ?

My Word Thesaurus describes newness as novelty, innovation, originality, freshness, inventiveness, and individuality. If we take a look around, we see that each of us is made uniquely. And Paul affirms that we have received a variety of distinct gifts in which we can serve one another (1 Corinthians 12:4). I am an original work of God. You are a fresh, innovative creation of God. We are all novelties with individuality. This is pretty exciting news! Think of all of the years and people it took for God to create each of us. Incredible.

Our verse today emphasizes another important aspect of this newness we have: “Therefore we have been buried with him by baptism into death.” In the gift of baptism, our old selves died- including all of our sins, regrets, oversights, and imperfections. But this also means that we died to ourselves. This new life doesn’t belong to us; this new life is to be used as God would like us to use it. So here are the questions we might ponder:

What does God see in us that we have yet to discover and share with the world? In what fresh, new way may God be calling us to use our unique gifts and passions? Is there anything inside of us that has been buried under doubt, fear, busyness, or selfishness?

What will we reveal as our new way of living and walking in this world? What new fresh aspect of ourselves, as God’s beautiful creations, will we share with others?

Our symbol for today is your photo. May the photo remind you that God has made you beautifully and originally. Life gives us the opportunity to share our uniqueness and our individual gifts in loving service to God. In what fresh new way could we open ourselves to be used by God today?

Our prayer is a beautiful one I found on the internet, but I’m unable to determine the original writer.

God, please enlighten my mind with truth.

Inflame my heart with love.

Inspire my will with courage.

Enrich my life with service.

Pardon what I have been.

Sanctify what I am.

And order what I shall be.

Amen.

Matthew 7:1-5

“Do not judge, so that you may not be judged. ² For with the judgment you make you will be judged, and the measure you give will be the measure you get. ³ Why do you see the speck in your neighbor’s eye, but do not notice the log in your own eye? ⁴ Or how can you say to your neighbor, ‘Let me take the speck out of your eye,’ while the log is in your own eye? ⁵ You hypocrite, first take the log out of your own eye, and then you will see clearly to take the speck out of your neighbor’s eye.

I must admit that when I read this passage, I sometimes wonder (with a little resentment) why Jesus didn’t say, “Why do you see the speck in your neighbor’s eye, but do not notice the speck in your own eye?” Why does MY eye have the log? Why can’t we both just have specks?

And that’s what this passage is all about, isn’t it? Jesus is teaching about not judging, and I start to whine that my flaws shouldn’t be any worse than anyone else’s. As soon as I begin comparing specks, Jesus’ words about judgment are clearly spoken for me!

Today our Lenten practice is goodwill. Goodwill includes kindness, benevolence, concern, and generosity. If we treat others with goodwill, we treat any flaws we may notice with mercy, understanding and compassion. We are aware that we have the same flaws. And- I’m learning- that we even have worse flaws!

Perhaps we lack goodwill especially when we are driving. Why do we tend to judge those who make mistakes with less goodwill than we do for ourselves? We may judge other drivers with descriptive words such as “aggressive,” “ignorant,” “impatient,” and “reckless.” But our own mistakes are “innocent,” “unavoidable,” “rare,” and “understandable.” It is so easy to treat ourselves more benevolently than the stranger in the other car.

For today, let’s ask God to make us aware of moments when we are apt to critically judge others, and moments when we might overlook our own flaws. Our symbol for today is a tape measure (or ruler), to remind us to be aware of how we are measuring and comparing others with ourselves. Let’s pray that the tape measure will especially remind us to keep from measuring at all!

God loves us all with goodwill. Equally. Totally. Generously. Specks, logs and everything in between.

Benevolent God,

Thank you for your goodwill and love for all of us. Help me to remember that you love us all, totally and infinitely. I don’t need to measure myself with any others to have your love. You love me anyway. Help me to share that same love today. Help me to put down my tape measure and treat everyone with goodwill and kindness. Amen.