Simply Soul Searching

Thursday, March 21st

Look: examine; to search for; expect; anticipate; to have in mind as an end; to exercise the power of vision; see; to direct one’s attention

Psalm 27:4 (NRSV)

One thing I asked of the Lord, that will I seek after: to live in the house of the Lord all the days of my life, to behold the beauty of the Lord, and to inquire in his temple.

At the Spiritual Writer’s Conference I attended last week, Barbara Brown Taylor graciously shared so many insights and helpful ideas with us! She is one of my favorite authors, and I am blessed by her deep spirituality. In one presentation, she spoke of the word behold, noting that the King James Version of the Bible used this word quite often. Interestingly, the word believe was used much less than behold. Since then, translators over the years have reduced the number of “beholds,” and in doing so, we have lost something.

Both words are necessary words when we speak of our faith. But if I didn’t know about Jesus, I would be more apt to listen to someone share their experiences of him. I would want to hear about the ways he has helped us, the things he has done for us, the ways he continues to move within and among us today. I would want to know all the ways Christ-followers behold him in their daily living. I would be uninterested if I only heard that I needed to believe in him as my Savior. I wonder if we have been too intent on inviting people to believe certain things about Jesus Christ rather than to behold him.

Could it be that we don’t share our experiences because we have forgotten how to look for them? In order to behold we need to be watchful for, mindful of those God moments. If someone were to ask me today how I experienced Jesus yesterday, I am not certain I would be able to share any specific examples- not because he wasn’t present, but because I didn’t notice. I believe in Jesus. I know he is working in me, but maybe I begin to take him for granted and then neglect to keep looking.

For us to be ready to share our faith with others, we need to be attentive. We need to look and to note our experiences in beholding the incredible goodness of God. We should retain in our hearts and minds the times we have seen God at work in this awesome creation, or the times we have been guided by the powerful movement of the Spirit, or the times we have felt the presence of Jesus so near to us. These are the compelling faith stories that draw others to want to know more. These are also the compelling faith stories that keep us ever deepening in our own faith.

Look…

The two disciples heard him say this, and they followed Jesus. When Jesus turned and saw them following, he said to them, “What are you looking for?” They said to him, “Rabbi” (which translated means Teacher), “where are you staying?” He said to them, “Come and see.” (John 1:37-39)

All definitions are excerpted from the Merriam-Webster online dictionary at https://www.merriam-webster.com/dictionary/

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Tuesday, March 19th

Linger: to be slow in parting or in quitting something; tarry

Exodus 33:7-11 (NRSV)

Now Moses used to take the tent and pitch it outside the camp, far off from the camp; he called it the tent of meeting. And everyone who sought the Lord would go out to the tent of meeting, which was outside the camp. Whenever Moses went out to the tent, all the people would rise and stand, each of them, at the entrance of their tents and watch Moses until he had gone into the tent. When Moses entered the tent, the pillar of cloud would descend and stand at the entrance of the tent, and the Lord would speak with Moses. When all the people saw the pillar of cloud standing at the entrance of the tent, all the people would rise and bow down, all of them, at the entrance of their tent. Thus the Lord used to speak to Moses face to face, as one speaks to a friend. Then he would return to the camp; but his young assistant, Joshua son of Nun, would not leave the tent.

Are you like us, the moviegoers who stay in the theater all the way through the ending credits? Then you, too, have discovered the bonuses in doing so- at times there are funny outtakes, great music, or special dedications. As others are exiting the theater to go on with the day, we linger behind to see if there will be any delightful surprises or extras in store for us. The others do not know what they might be missing!

In this passage from Exodus, Moses goes to the tent of meeting to hear God speak to him. Moses would hear God’s word, then return to the camp to share the message with the people. But in a little phrase at the end of this passage, we learn that Joshua, Moses’ assistant, would remain in the tent.

Perhaps Joshua stayed to keep watch over the sacred tent. Perhaps he was offering a continuous prayer vigil for Moses and the Israelites. I like to think that he wanted to simply linger in the afterglow of Moses’ encounter with the presence of God. Like us movie theater lingerers, Joshua may have wanted to remain in the tent just in case there would be some bonus surprises or “extras” too.

I recently learned that there is an incubation period in our brains after we learn something new. In that incubation, we often recombine what we have just learned to form yet another new and creative idea. My morning walks are times when I ponder a certain thought and often additional ideas evolve from that. The incubation period is like watching the movie’s ending credits. We already have the initial message or point of the movie, but we receive additional insights, laughs, or beautiful extras if we linger with it.

When we linger with a Word or message we have received during worship, or a possible answer to prayer, or a song that has resonated with us, we give the Spirit more time to work. The Spirit can rearrange our initial thoughts and create new meaning from them. Lingering opens us up for additional insights and creative surprises on top of the original revelation. We move from what first caught our attention into something deeper and maybe even surprising at times.

The next time we notice a Word or inspiration that touches our hearts, may we linger a while- and not be so ready to exit and go on with life. We never know what we might be missing!

All definitions are excerpted from the Merriam-Webster online dictionary at https://www.merriam-webster.com/dictionary/

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Monday, March 18th

Legitimate: to make (someone or something) legitimate: 1. to give legal status to; 2. to show or affirm to be justified; 3. to lend authority or respectability to.

Proverbs 31

Speak out for those who cannot speak,
    for the rights of all the destitute.
Speak out, judge righteously,
    defend the rights of the poor and needy.

I was driving home from a conference last week when I stopped to buy gas and a few snacks. As I waited in line, the gentleman ahead of me struggled to understand the cashier. He obviously could not understand English very well. I knew he only needed her to repeat her words slowly, perhaps showing him what she meant. Instead she raised her voice, as if yelling would make a difference. Then she quickly became openly hostile to the poor man, her anger and frustration raging upon him as he stood there quietly.

I did not speak. Perhaps I was shocked, or afraid, or simply dumbfounded, but I did not speak. How I wish I would have asked the cashier why she was being so mean. I wish I would have set my trail mix down and left the place. I wish I would have stayed outside to tell the man how sorry I was. Instead, I quietly paid for my things and drove away.

I have regretted this ever since…

Especially when I arrived home and read the news about the 49 Muslims who are now dead because someone else was raging. If I remain silent, I am part of the problem. If I do not speak up for the oppressed, I am part of the problem. If I don’t speak against every act of meanness, arrogance, hostility and prejudice, I am silently condoning them. May I never, never, never remain silent in the face of hatred again.

In these times, we are desperately needed to legitimate our immigrants, refugees, and all others who are treated this way. From the above definitions, my work to legitimate this man would have been to “lend him the respectability” he deserved. My unearned respectability and authority to lend comes only from looking like the cashier and speaking the same language! I may have been able to help her see she was out of line. I could also have made her more upset, but at least the gentleman would not have felt so alone.

We are called to speak out for those who cannot speak. I think of our dear Jesus, who mostly remained silent before his tormentors. Did he wonder why no one had the love and courage to defend him, to speak against these atrocities? When we speak up for the oppressed, we are speaking for him, too. I am so sorry, Jesus.

Open my mouth, move my conscience, give me the courage, God, when this happens again. For sadly, I know it will.

All definitions are excerpted from the Merriam-Webster online dictionary at https://www.merriam-webster.com/dictionary/

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Saturday, March 16th

Listen: to pay attention to sound; to hear something with thoughtful attention; to be alert to catch an expected sound

Mark 9:7

Then a cloud overshadowed them, and from the cloud there came a voice, “This is my Son, the Beloved; listen to him!”

In his too-short life and our too few times together, my cousin Glen taught all of his cousins so much about life and love. Some would say he was different from the rest of us, but we all found his differences beautiful. He delighted in all of the simple joys of life. His gentle spirit would become quite competitive each time he won his favorite card game. He genuinely loved and adored each of us, and we loved him.

We marveled most at his uncanny ability to hear the music of an ice cream truck. As we were running and playing and laughing and shouting together in the yard, Glen would suddenly stop, alert and attentive. Wondering why, we would pause our activity and he would announce, “Ice cream truck!” Sure enough- once we were quiet and still- we could hear the faint music in the next neighborhood as the ice cream truck wended its way toward our street. The refreshing treats were on their way!

Looking back, I now realize that Glen’s hearing was probably no better than ours. His excitement about the ice cream truck made him attentive, expectant, hopeful and ready to listen at any moment, no matter what would be going on around him. He did not need silence. The joy of the ice cream truck music would beckon from afar, and Glen would be ready to hear it. His ears were trained and attuned to the simple music that signaled the arrival of delightful treats.

Oh, may we be so excited to hear the voice of Christ that we too, are attentive, expectant, hopeful and ready! May we be so attuned to Jesus’ voice that we recognize it even in the midst of our chaos and noise. May we be so alert that we are able to hear his faint whisper from afar. In the midst of our everyday routines may we await and anticipate his beautiful word with eagerness. Most of all, may we rejoice each time we hear his word, for we know it is bringing us pure refreshment and joy.

(I know Glen recognized the voice of Christ, too. I know that he heard Jesus’ voice in all of his days, and now is spending eternity directly in his presence.)

All definitions are excerpted from the Merriam-Webster online dictionary at https://www.merriam-webster.com/dictionary/

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Friday, March 15th

Labor: to exert one’s powers of body or mind especially with painful or strenuous effort; work

1 Corinthians 15:58

Therefore, my beloved, be steadfast, immovable, always excelling in the work of the Lord, because you know that in the Lord your labor is not in vain.

Our word for today is labor. As you consider the work you do each day, do you sense a difference in attitude between your labor to improve things versus your labor to maintain them? I would rather paint an entire wall with a bright new color than to repair and cover a crack in it. Spending time looking at new and improved vehicles to buy is more appealing than waiting for oil changes and tire rotations. I like redecorating our home with fun new items more than sweeping and dusting. I find greater pleasure in working to create something new than in maintaining the old.

Perhaps I feel this way because the “reward” is greater when I am able to see striking and visible results from my efforts. A house guest would notice a fresh new wall color but probably not a repaired blemish.  New is exciting. New is dramatic and eye-catching. New is novel and fun. Maintenance of the old usually isn’t as rewarding.

Nine days into Lent, I am noticing that the “newness” of the season is beginning to wear off. On Ash Wednesday, I could hardly wait to begin my disciplines of fasting from certain distractions while increasing my spiritual reflection. Now these disciplines, at first fresh and new, are becoming more routine and even tedious. Discipline begins to feel like labor when we need to make a greater effort to persevere.

The maintenance of our spiritual selves through regular discipline doesn’t always feel exciting or new. We want the mountaintop experiences, the fresh revelations, the glorious retreats. We want to see ourselves growing into better followers of Christ in dramatic ways. But we need to keep persevering- to keep up with our disciplines of fasting, spiritual reading, praying, or serving- whether or not we can see a visible difference; whether or not we feel like it. Remember, maintenance does help to keep us from deteriorating!

This verse from 1 Corinthians is perfect for such a time as this. Paul encourages us to remain steadfast, to keep working for the Lord, trusting that our labor will not be in vain. Our labors in keeping our disciplines and following Jesus will not be for naught. Even if we are unable to see any differences, God is making us new… every moment of every day.

All definitions are excerpted from the Merriam-Webster online dictionary at https://www.merriam-webster.com/dictionary/

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Thursday, March 14th

Lack: to stand in need of ; suffer from the absence or deficiency of

Mark 10:17-22 (NRSV)

As he was setting out on a journey, a man ran up and knelt before him, and asked him, “Good Teacher, what must I do to inherit eternal life?” Jesus said to him, “Why do you call me good? No one is good but God alone. You know the commandments: ‘You shall not murder; You shall not commit adultery; You shall not steal; You shall not bear false witness; You shall not defraud; Honor your father and mother.’” He said to him, “Teacher, I have kept all these since my youth.” Jesus, looking at him, loved him and said, “You lack one thing; go, sell what you own, and give the money to the poor, and you will have treasure in heaven; then come, follow me.” When he heard this, he was shocked and went away grieving, for he had many possessions.

Jesus knows this man will enter the heavenly kingdom after his earthly death. Not because the rich man tries to be a good person by keeping the commandments and doing what is right. Not because he reverently kneels before Jesus and asks, “What must I do…?” Not because he recognizes Jesus as One from God while so many others have not. Jesus knows what the man can not yet know… that only because of Jesus, the man will inherit eternal life, whether he is perfect or not.

But Jesus loves this man so much that he wants him to experience kingdom living right away, while the man is still living his earthly life.  He tells the man the one thing that is keeping him from fully experiencing the kingdom in his present time. He must sell his possessions and follow Jesus.  Ironically, the rich man lacks heavenly treasures because he has an excess of worldly treasures!

Jesus loves and wants all of us to experience kingdom living here and now, too. In this story, he is showing us how our lack of heavenly treasures stems from our excessive worldly treasures! In seeking and keeping worldly enticements, we miss out on all of the heavenly treasures and blessings available to us. Here are a few examples…

The excess of seeking financial security keeps us from the blessing of seeking reliance on God.

The excess of material possessions keeps us from the precious gift of simplicity.

The excess of greed keeps us from the blessing of a kingdom where no one is in need.

The excess of social media keeps us distracted from the still, small voice of God.

The excess of full schedules keeps us from the treasure of much-needed Sabbath rest.

The excess of pride and self-reliance keeps us from the blessing of humble trust in God.

“For where your treasure is, there your heart will be also” (Luke 12:34). Isn’t this so true? Jesus told the man, “You lack one thing…” What would be the one kingdom treasure that Jesus would say we lack?  If we each do an honest review of our own earthly excesses, we will find our answer. The earthly treasures that take the most of our time and attention (and maybe even obsession) cause us to miss out on the opposite treasures- the heavenly joys. Too much earth leads to our lack of heaven.

*All definitions are excerpted from the Merriam-Webster online dictionary at https://www.merriam-webster.com/dictionary/

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Wednesday, March 13th

Lace: to draw or pass something (such as a shoelace) through something (such as eyelets)

Ephesians 6:15

As shoes for your feet put on whatever will make you ready to proclaim the gospel of peace.

Jesus came to live among us in God’s perfect time. I know there are many reasons why the time was right, but sometimes I wonder about the seemingly insignificant details in God’s timing. For example, I wonder if Jesus came before photography or video technology so that we would have to live by word and faith alone. We have no way to see the actual footage of Jesus in action.

More than this, I also wonder if Jesus came before the invention of transportation vehicles so that he had to walk everywhere. So much of his ministry happened as he was walking to the next destination. Walking enabled him to encounter people face to face, to pause for teaching, healing or blessing, and to truly be among the people. There was no rushing, no passing someone on the side of the road unnoticed. Then there was the time Jesus even chose to walk on water!

My daily walks have given me an opportunity to ponder in solitude. And yet, I have met and talked with many people I never would have had the chance to know. I meet fellow walkers, people sitting on porches, neighbors working in the yard, and even a few folks who slow their vehicles to greet me before driving away. I have talked with mail carriers and delivery truck drivers. Walking opens a way to connect with others.

We may not have the time to walk everywhere, or even to make daily walks part of our routines, but we DO have opportunities to “walk” with people in other ways. We might walk alongside someone who is suffering by being a listening and caring friend. We might walk to support a good cause, like my dear friends did for me at the Ovarian Cancer Walk a few years ago. We might walk in solidarity with those who are oppressed or discriminated against by standing up for their rights. We might walk among people who are different from us by making an effort to learn and grow in our understanding. We might walk in unity with our faith community as we work together to make a difference for others.

It is time to lace up our shoes or whatever will make (us) ready to proclaim the gospel of peace. Where is God calling us to walk today? We are called to action. We are called to move. We are called to live out our faith, in courage and in love.

“Do not ask God to guide your footsteps if you are unwilling to move your feet.”

~Sean Patrick Flanery

*All definitions are excerpted from the Merriam-Webster online dictionary at https://www.merriam-webster.com/dictionary/

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Tuesday, March 12th

Lift: to raise from a lower to a higher position; elevate

Mark 9:27

But Jesus took him by the hand and lifted him up, and he was able to stand.

I was at a seminar when an unfamiliar woman suddenly approached me. With a big smile, she told me that she had felt called to pray for me. To this day I don’t know why or what she asked God to do for me, and honestly, she made me feel quite uncomfortable. (How bad did I look??) Another time, a fellow church member told me she was praying for my former husband and me, asking God to help us stay married because “Dr. Dobson said children are always better off if their parents stay together.” I had to wonder how she and Dr. Dobson knew so much about our particular family situation that they could so easily say and believe this.

When I tell people I will pray for them- even those I know well and love dearly- I don’t always know what would be the best request to make. I simply will never have all the information that God has. I cannot really know what is the best answer in every circumstance. There is a blessed relief to know that the Spirit intercedes for us, but my prayer requests can feel very inadequate; at times I even worry that my words are completely wrong.

Our word for today is lift. My friend Lisa once told me that the best prayer we can offer for our dear ones is to simply lift them by name before God. In prayer, we present the person before God and say something like this: “I lift ________ to you today, God. I know that you love them even more than I can imagine. I know that your perfect love and healing are surrounding them even now. You know what is best, God, and I thank you for doing that.”

We can lift up any person, situation or concern in the same way. God knows what is needed. God knows what to do already. Our prayer then gives both the one praying and the one being lifted that sweet relief of surrendering our limited and perhaps selfish desires, while entrusting our concerns to God’s complete and perfect control. I like this. I would feel so very blessed if someone told me, “I am lifting you before God today, into God’s perfect, loving presence.” That would be more than enough.

As you finish reading, know that I am lifting in prayer all who read this today, simply presenting you before God’s perfect and loving presence.

*All definitions are excerpted from the Merriam-Webster online dictionary at https://www.merriam-webster.com/dictionary/

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Monday, March 11th

Let: to give opportunity to or fail to prevent

Psalm 19:14 (NRSV)